changes

It has been a really long time since i wrote. So many people gone.....new people here. I'm grateful and want to have peace. I move through these stages of grief. I know that I am stronger. I miss Mary....probably always will. What does it take to create a new life? Letting go...continuously letting go. I know a few things. That love doesn't die.....that death is just a veil...that I have made alot of mistakes and I am growing......I forgive myself/I hope others can as well.......that it will not be the same..........that most people don't keep promises to those who are dying.....only a few do......that love is there when you least expect it.......that experience in life is valuable.....even if it hurts like hell.....that sometimes new love is not good enough.....that sometimes you have to go back to what you know and can trust. I have devotion to God and reverance for the teachers.....