It's Hallowen

Hi everyone, I'm fixin to head home tomorrow to see my Dad and check in on Mama. She is doing well with her diabetic diet. Dad had another out of his head moment the other day and told Mom to get the hell out, threw his walker down the hallway and was a little intense. If you can stay out of his way and keep him from hurting himself he falls asleep and then comes out of it. Mary is going to work for a couple of hours each day. It wears her out but it feels good for her to be out of the house. We had a talk about our living space today. We are going to stay here in our apt till we are unable to and it will work itself out. We have so many good memories here and we both love it. The back yard is like our own personal park. I've been worrying about it alot...it is true that if you can stay in the moment it is okay. Mary's determined to keep doing the stairs. So we are sitting here watching Jumanji. It is pretty scarey but I like robin Williams. He is one hairy dude in this movie. I had a long talk with my boss today. She is my advocate & I am very grateful. My bosses boss sent Mary and I a card saying she was thinking about us.....one of my colleagues with whom we had dinner with last week sent Mary the most beautiful blue/green mohair shawl. It is very warm. Vivienne is a master knitter and has been in many competitions. Needless to say...we were both touched with the outpouring and the beauty of her creation. Mary said she has been cold with the anemia and my friend answered this call. I've thought about why us....then thought well, why not us. Why does anyone get cancer. What the hell is cancer except cells gone wild. Kind of like boys gone wild on the beach....but too much growth hormone instead of testosterone. If we could just erase it like one of those tapes...or chose not to buy it or participate in the watching. There are things that are hard to be present for....but that is what we do for each other: witness our life together and individually. There are certain things that I'd keep of the experience. #1: My deepening love for Mary #2 The miracle of deepening friendships #3: A sense of spirituality that I never thought possible but is so necessary in this process of life....to grow, to believe, to experience all possibility and remain sane #4 To flow with changes that occur no matter what they are #5 To have hope and to believe in possibility #6 To cherish small kisses in the night #7 To have a respite of an easy day without pain #8 To not take anything for granted #9 to live each day fully in the present as much as you can. I love you all....I especially love Mary M York. She is the love of my life. xoxox lg