9.2 is a great number

Yes the Hemoglobin has risen. Mary was admitted last night for a blood transfusion. Her hgb was 6.9; a low number and inconsistent with oxygenation. We knew this would be the case occasionally. I was thinking last night that it was Oct 26th, 2006 that Mary last had a discharge from the hospital. Considering everything....that is pretty impressive. She had some tears yesterday and is always very emotional on the day of scans. I generally join her in this emotionality but doing lots of meditation this weekend shored up my feeling side.....and allows me not to collapse in the emotion part. This way I can be more supportive for her emotions. Sometimes she does the same for me as about every 3 months I get to have a crying jag. I have a big cry for about 15 minutes....and then I'm done. She and I talked about emotions as energy....how the energy passes as long as you don't block it. Kind of like energy down a power cord.....as long as there are no blocks...we conduct the experience though our bodies....as we focus more on the things that are important....connection with others, our own sense of divine...how change is just part of the everyday experience of life...if we can flow with it....how sometimes we don't have to plug in to the crisis emotion or the freak emotion or the whatever emotion and just have the feelings...move onto or back to a place of peace. I have a couple of talks today so our husband Gary(thank you) will bring Mary home from the hospital....of course she says she is going right to the office. I just look at her and say Okay. I don't say much except okay unless I feel she is in danger of hurting herself.....or I feel my idea could save her strain on the body, mind or emotions. I figure that is my job as her lover/partner/caring person. Her will is what is keeping her wanting to be here and I am all for that. I just keep repeating the mantra..."That you God that Mary is responding to the medication and will continue to respond to it". With great faith, love and gratitude...so be it." It keeps the fear away and the negative thoughts....as thoughts are also energy and they can hang around. What you think about the most comes to be. So I think of us in Michigan, I think of us around the dinner table....I think of Mary in her easily movable body. I think of the doctors telling us the cancer is completely gone from the body....I think of her at 80 and me at 74 smiling at each other. I dream of us alot....she is never in pain. Well, enough of that....Have to get down to Northwestern and see my baby. xoxo lg