Friday night and all is well

Mary and I are sitting her with My Mom. It has been really nice to have Mom here for a few days. She said she felt like she had ran away from home. We have just ran errans together and I've cooked. Yesterday we went to walkers pancake house with the twins and sir ben. Ben is 5 now and the twins are 3 1/2 years old. Maddie had on pink cowboy boots and Tommie ate 6 plates of food. He outweights his older brother by 2 pounds. Mom took a small pancake off his plate thinking there was no way he could eat it...he looked at her with shock and told her directly that he wanted it. Needless to say the boy is growing and for all he eats he is lean and a sweet heart. I'm very blessed to have the kids in my life and to feel like we are a family. Family is so much about choice of folks rather than blood. For some folks it is blood...I miss my family but feel that family is chosen as well as blood. It seems that my blood family has been out of reach either because of distance, death or because of the lack of connection. We all seem to just hover in our orbits and sometimes we meet and sometimes we don't. I don't get it cause it is all I've ever wanted. Mary and my relationship is the first time in my life that I feel like I have made a family....my family is with her, our friends and family.

Mary is hanging in there. We are up and down in our emotions, our intensities and our dreams. Sometimes we feel like we have all the time in the world and othertimes we are grabbin at minutes. If we stay in the moment...it's okay. If we think about anything else....it gets confusing. We have 11 days till our appt in houston. We are counting down and can't wait to get started. We just feel it is a race against the thing that controls so much in our life. Can't do it...can't let it control....got to live with it and keep fightin. I go out in the kitchen....try to keep on top of things as much as I can....be a worthwhile employee.....and do as much as I can to make things right and loving. Even when I don't feel right....I try to act as if until it changes. Emotions are energy....energy always changes. I just love Mary York. Love you all, lg